loy·al·ty

noun

the quality of being loyal to someone or something.
"her loyalty to her husband of 34 years"

a strong feeling of support or allegiance.
plural noun: loyalties

     Thats right. I start this post out with the pure definition of loyalty, because that is what this post will be all about. I often wonder, if I am one of the few that even cares, or has any true loyalty anymore. I mean, I know there are people out there very loyal to their causes. Loyal to their partners. Loyal to whatever it is they feel strongly for. But, where are they? Am I one of the people that really cant find them? Am I looking in all the wrong places? Am I on the wrong planet? I meet a lot of people almost on a daily basis. Yet I seem to find everyone who is the farthest from loyal to anything really. At least, so it seems. Let me give you an example of, well, how I see my current life? I guess you could say.

     Currently, I have a Mistress. Yes thats right, I am owned by another woman. I have been owned by the same Mistress for some time now. Its, been a few years. My Mistress, well, she can from time to time be very busy as, I am not the only one she owns. She has a husband, who I know, and respect as much as her. No he is not a Master to me. We keep those parts separated. She also has pet's. I believe I have met most of them. One I do know somewhat and he is a nice guy. I get along with him just fine. Another thats, well, I wont bother bringing her up for now. That type of person is worth a blog post in itself. Other pets I am pretty sure I have at least met them once, but have no clue anything about them. Dont really care. I am not a pet and would never lower my standards to be one. Oh, almost forgot, she even has a boyfriend. Yes, busy busy life my Mistress has. Her boyfriend I basically know nothing about, and again, really dont care unless it is something affecting my Mistress. Wonder if I am forgetting anything...

     Well anyways, lets get back on track here. With that intro as to who she is, lets look at me. I am what I like to call, a very loyal sub/slave. What I mean is, with all that time my Mistress has to deal with all of that lot, it leaves sometimes very little time for me. The time we do get together is blank. Not always as I can tell when my Mistress puts forth extra effort to show me she is there, and talks to me. Of course, being in my position, I crave more, and more, and always feel I never get enough. I am one of those who requires a lot of attention. I need it to keep happy. Do I feel I get all the attention I need? Not at all. But its understandable. Where my loyalty falls into this, even with all that craving attention, I would never leave her. I love her too much.

     Now I know some of you would probably say "Well, you wouldn't leave her, and find a new Mistress to get that attention, because you love her." No. This is where the difference is. I can perfectly fine, love my Mistress, without staying under her care. If I was to find a new Mistress, that would never lessen the love I have for her. The reason I stay, she needs me. From the talks we have had many many times before, if I was to leave, it would leave her in a bad spot. I stay because, I am loyal to my Mistress.

     This is not meant to be just about me and my Mistress. No it also extends to my friends. I find friendships tend to lack the loyalty. If you read one of my other posts, "Friends? Hmm..." you would remember me talking about why most seem to stick around. Their loyalties are stuck to something other than you, your feelings, your personality. Loyalties can stick to, what you can offer them. Money, gifts, items, stuff like that. So maybe there are more loyalties around me that I don't see. Or do see, and chose to ignore. 

     Dig around this page, it is easy to see I spend a lot of time in IMVU currently. I have spent time in lots of different online worlds too. One big one, Secondlife. You know, it used to be that these companies that own these worlds, took care of their long time members. The people who registered with real life details. Age, Identification, things like that. They would treat you like, part of their online family. Not anymore. If you have any issues, or problems in either of these worlds now, you get shined off... Wait, scratch that. You ONLY get shined off, if you do not pay for their monthly service. As long as you pay them monthly, you get expert service now. Its fast, they wanna help you within a few hours of posting your problem. Now, look at the 8 year old account registered with IMVU. Sure, I had a few recent issues. Takes 4 days for them to even look at the problem. But the brand new VIP member, paying their monthly service fee, well he/she gets service instantly. Hell they don't even need to have registered with their real life identification. Loyalty... given to who pays more.

     Meh, enough with this rant. I am sure you can see where it is going if I continue any longer. Just always remember, look deep at your loyalties. This is for those of you who wish to become a better person to someone else. Where do your loyalties stand? What is it you care for more? Can money buy you? Or are you the type that no matter what, no matter what you receive, can you stick by someones side and actually care for them? If your answer is no to that last question, could you change? Come on, for the sake of love, give it a try. :D

Love always;

           Manda

Friends? Hmm...

So as my experiences go on, I find myself often wondering. Maybe more these days than in the past, but this was something I often thought about even in my early years within IMVU, Secondlife, There, hell even World of Warcraft. I guess its something I can apply to any and every online world/community I have belonged to. Where do your loyalties stand? What I mostly mean is in friendships. I cant tell you how many years I have been floating around in these different worlds as I started it all at a young age. You know, back when the internet was still a fairly new place. The way it has evolved has been amazing too. Many different cultures all becoming more and more active. I will admit I am impressed.

Now what has been on my mind so many times. With loyalties and all that. I have met, well you know the average person you meet and within a few days or a week they claim to be your best friend. Even you yourself feel it maybe. Yet how close of a friend are they really? It can be hard to say cause a lot of the time I have noticed as long as you have something to offer them still, it seems like they are always there, always active with you, and seem to be loyal to you. The day comes that you have nothing new to offer them, well they become distant. Sometimes they find a "new" friend they get more involved with, while you seem to fade out. Why? Well it doesn't matter to that person what you feel, as they will tell you why. Go ahead, try and explain your feelings about something to them at that stage, and see what you get. Are they interested in how you feel? Or do they know better why it is you feel this way, and offer you a... well what seems like an only option, take it or leave it explanation? Are those friendship loyalties yet feeling more one sided now? Would you consider that a real, true friend?

Granted there are the very few you do meet. Bond with. Then, even long after the new and freshness of the friendship wears off, nothing changes. Those few people who you get to know, spill your guts to as they do the same and are still there. Sure sometimes you go through spells where you don't see them for a day, few days, even a week or so. But they are always there when you ask. When you need someone to talk to. I miss meeting those types of people and to me seems, those are very few these days. These days as in meaning, its been a good few years since I have met someone like that.

I sometimes wonder if I am searching for the wrong thing here on the internet. I dont know if in these new days what I seek is even out there anymore. Friendships. Those friendships that done require something in return. Just meeting, finding people who do actually care about how you feel, or what is on your mind.

Oh the Complications of Life...

Hey all, just popping in to see how everyone is doing. Me? Oh I'm great. Just got back from the store, they kicked me out cause I seen a couple fighting, and ran up and shouted "MORTALLL KOMBAAATT!" and started raving next to them. Seems people don't like things like that. :/ OH! Now get this, while driving home some jerk cut me off, had to swerve and almost hit someone. I swear cars need to come with two horns. One that's all "Hey guys :3" and another that's like "I will end you ._."

Seen a cute girl Heather that lives two houses down when I got back. She turned my direction so I quickly looked away. I am pretty sure she knows I was looking at her. O.O I remember a time when we used to be afraid of people from the internet finding us in rl, now I worry more about those in rl finding me on the internet. No one understands you better than some crazy weirdos on the internet. :D

Decided to check my Instagram once I got inside. You know keep up on what everyone is eating today, and this morning, and yesterday, and lunch that day, and... Well you get my drift there. Think I will take a picture of my microwaved leftovers and post it. Seen a friend got married a few days ago on Facebook. It truly bothers me how so many people would marry someone just for their money. Because I'm trying to do that & you're lowering my chances.

Well that's about enough of me for now. Just wanted to again say hello. :) Kinda nervous about tonight, going to head out to the club in a bit. You know you don't know crap about pressure until you're the only white person on the dance floor while black people clap & form a circle around you. Wish me luck!

<3 Manda

Just another day in the life...

Hello everyone, hope your day is going well for you. As for me, well, the person before me at the gas station got $0.57 worth of gas. My day doesn’t seem so bad at all. Took a trip to Wal Mart to pick up a few things. Oh and a quick shoutout, to the woman with six screaming kids in the store, if your wondering how those condoms got in your cart, you’re welcome.

So I got home and realized I just bought wiskey instead of milk again. How does this keep happening? Oh well, you know the lottery gives you a 1 in 20 billion chance you won't go to work tomorrow, alcohol gives me 1 in 5. You play your game and I'll play mine kthanksbai. Guess it's almost that time I try and get half way between "cant remember my name" and "head in toilet". :P The sun is setting so it's about that time. Speaking of sunset's, sometimes I wonder as beautiful as they are, the very first person to actualy see one was probably like "Well this ain't good."

Well it has come to that time again, my time to close. Few things before I leave you though... Next time your on your phone, text a random phone number the following message. "The fat one won't fit into the woodchipper. What do you want me to do?" Make life a little interesting. :) Always remember that conspiracy theorists have only been planted by a secret organization to distract us from what's really going on. Also, the next time you see someone wearing camouflage clothing, bump into them. It only takes a second of your time and makes them feel like it's working.

<3 always Manda

About MandaMarie

Sup there homeslice!

OK so here are some basics about me. I am a IMVU DJ as well as an IMVU creator of many random things. I lead TWO LIVES! Yes thats right, I have my life here at home, then I have my life here on the net. I like to keep them separated as I don't have much room for one in the other. Sure my life here on the net is much different than in my real world. But that doesn't mean I am any different than how or who I am when mixed up in the online world. Yes thats right, even though I wont share my real life with you here, you still get to know me. The good, the bad, its all here.

I was born in the early days of November so, thats right, makes me the great Scorpio. Awesome huh? I am a for sure product of the highest high's, and some fairly low, low's. I try and keep a good attitude all the time, a smile on my face always and a positive look on things as they happen no matter good or bad. But I am still human. So at times I may fall and do wrong just like any human being would, can, and will always do through out our lives.

I do love meeting people. That is one of the reasons I enjoy the net so much is because there are countless people to meet right at my fingertips. I have met a lot in my time and will meet a lot more in the future too. So maybe, if we haven't yet met, its probably about time we do dont you think?